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I’ve often seen people with repressed emotions, trying too hard to not show what they had gone through. Believe me, these feelings might be forgotten by you after a year or so, but your heart carries this awful burden until your deathbed. Love yourself compassionately, you need to let go of the abusive memories and harsh feelings you were compelled to go through and do forgive the person you were deliberately harmed by(Even if that person was you). You need to comprehend that they too had once suffered in the hands of injustice and hatred by somebody and that ‘somebody’ in turn might have had been hurt by someone else and the cycle henceforth continues without any stoppage.
Breathe. Deeply. And try to isolate yourself completely from those painful memories. Gently shut your eyes and imagine yourself in a glorious environment with a child- splurging with innocence and playfulness. Instantly connect with that child. You look at her and soon realise that the child is the former you, the authentic form of yourself who has been suffering the day since you isolated her to experience the materialistic life. Make an attempt to strike a conversation with that child and convince her that you truly love and admire her for who she is. Ask her for granting you forgiveness at not being able to present yourself to her when she needed you the most. And that very time was when you were emotionally wounded but you prevented your tears from flowing away, when you were abused but you didn’t prefer to show that to the world. This directly affected your inner child and brought about a drastic change to your inner world and consequently to your outer world too.
After asking her to forgive you (this may take some time since the child may be hesitant at first to share her true feelings with you). Hug her and listen to her and her ordeal experiences. Remind her time and again that that time, which lingered with pain and animosity has now fled away and that you hold the responsibility as a guardian of your child, protecting her from all the miseries that might try to creep in,if, in the near future. Experience your angels around you and your inner child, blessing you and showering immense love upon the inner child. After that, Talk with her, play with her and proclaim your love to your inner child. Finally, bid her an adieu and remind her and yourself that you would come back again to meet her very soon. Practice these sessions every day until all the suppressed feelings of your inner child emerge out. Hearing those stories and experiences might make you overwhelmed with emotions but that would only prove that your journey of self healing has commenced!
Finally, open your eyes and congratulate yourself for a beautiful work out!