A Modern Day Fairy Tale
Hideous. Ghastly. Hateful.
The words dominated her mind as she glanced at the mirror. Her world was clearly shattered. Her vividly imaginative mind allowed her to believe that the mirror was taunting her for her looks and questioning her beauty. She shut her eyes tightly, for she wasn’t in fear of the world but herself. Thoughts about her failed marriage and its aftermath petrified her soul to such an extent that she broke down.
There were no birds on the window seal to lend their wonderful voices and weave a song to calm her horrified soul. No mice to bring in some comical touch to her life’s dreary story. She dreamt of a Prince Charming but her Prince’s charm was a mere disillusion. She uttered a yelp to her Godmother, for she wanted the magic of life to be back, so that she could be the same shimmering herself that she used to be six months ago.
All of a sudden, she realised something. Her conscience hit upon her so hard that she remained still for another hour. Then, the most unexpected situation occurred. She stood up, gaped with astonishment as she took a look at her disfigured face, which was once as beautiful and blissful as it could ever be, until the attack of sulphuric acid which left her with one eye blinded and epithelial cells of the skin, lifeless. But, enough is enough.
Neither was she a damsel nor in distress, anymore. She couldn’t be a lifeless log floating in the river of life with its aim being nothing.
‘I’m beautiful. The most glamorous girl I’ve ever known. How does it matter to me what the mirror says about the beauty which is only virtual, far from the real. I no longer wait for my knight in shining armour to enter into the scene as a saviour and shield me from the criticism I may have to face. I-am-my-own-true-hero. I’m bold and unsuspiciously stunning. And I need not prove that to someone else.’
For the very first time, she could see herself smiling, that curve on her face sparkled like a gem. She had made up her mind to live, live for the sake of herself and her family which loves her way too much, irrespective of the drastic change(albeit virtual).
She finally found her own Charming hero who would love her because of the precious inner beauty which no one could ever steal from her, the wonderful Godmother who would guide her through her struggles, the birds and mice who would dance in jolly when she would attain the success she’s striving for. All of them were right in front of her, as she gazed at the mirror with a novel aspiration.
~Anshika M Jhamb
Your True Belonging!
Have a genuine look at yourself and your environment. What do you conclude after surveying the whole of you and the settings?
Well, the books which are kept on the shelf are mine, the curtains blocking the radiant rays of the sun are mine, the television belongs to me and surely the chair on which I’m seated is rightfully my property. So much so, even this body which I ill treat is mine! (Don’t feel offended, I’m only referring to that major part of the Homo sapiens population who love to shower hatred on their bodies, in different ways though).
Now that you agree to what I say, I would like to share with you one of the most satisfying quotes I’ve come across lately. It is from an incredible soul who goes by the name of Thich Nath Hanh:
“My actions are my only true belongings. I cannot escape the consequences of my actions. My actions are the ground upon which I stand”
Accurate to the core. The quote mentioned above is applicable to all the beings dwelling in the 21st century and especially to the ones who are determined to live a blissful and healthy life.
The only thing that truly belongs to you and shows itself to people first are your actions and how you react to any person’s action. Not even your mortal body will accompany you to the journey after death, it will solely be your pure soul and the actions that you performed (pure or impure) while you took the journey on this mortally alive planet. Believe me, the way you are with people and other living creatures truly defines your attitude towards yourself and consequently the universe’s attitude towards you!
Be good. Be kind. Be childlike. And be gleeful so that the people around you take delight in the warmth of your charismatic aura. Give good, Receive the best and don’t think of the rest!
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I’ve often seen people with repressed emotions, trying too hard to not show what they had gone through. Believe me, these feelings might be forgotten by you after a year or so, but your heart carries this awful burden until your deathbed. Love yourself compassionately, you need to let go of the abusive memories and harsh feelings you were compelled to go through and do forgive the person you were deliberately harmed by(Even if that person was you). You need to comprehend that they too had once suffered in the hands of injustice and hatred by somebody and that ‘somebody’ in turn might have had been hurt by someone else and the cycle henceforth continues without any stoppage.
Breathe. Deeply. And try to isolate yourself completely from those painful memories. Gently shut your eyes and imagine yourself in a glorious environment with a child- splurging with innocence and playfulness. Instantly connect with that child. You look at her and soon realise that the child is the former you, the authentic form of yourself who has been suffering the day since you isolated her to experience the materialistic life. Make an attempt to strike a conversation with that child and convince her that you truly love and admire her for who she is. Ask her for granting you forgiveness at not being able to present yourself to her when she needed you the most. And that very time was when you were emotionally wounded but you prevented your tears from flowing away, when you were abused but you didn’t prefer to show that to the world. This directly affected your inner child and brought about a drastic change to your inner world and consequently to your outer world too.
After asking her to forgive you (this may take some time since the child may be hesitant at first to share her true feelings with you). Hug her and listen to her and her ordeal experiences. Remind her time and again that that time, which lingered with pain and animosity has now fled away and that you hold the responsibility as a guardian of your child, protecting her from all the miseries that might try to creep in,if, in the near future. Experience your angels around you and your inner child, blessing you and showering immense love upon the inner child. After that, Talk with her, play with her and proclaim your love to your inner child. Finally, bid her an adieu and remind her and yourself that you would come back again to meet her very soon. Practice these sessions every day until all the suppressed feelings of your inner child emerge out. Hearing those stories and experiences might make you overwhelmed with emotions but that would only prove that your journey of self healing has commenced!
Finally, open your eyes and congratulate yourself for a beautiful work out!